Sorry for this, but I’m too proud of myself not to.

It’s been a couple of days like this.

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The temperature outside has dropped to 0 degrees celsius, inside it’s reached high to almost maximum level of warmth and comfort.

On sunday I made cinnamonrolls. Can you fucking believe it?! (also notice my sexy wine rack and my not so sexy collection of shit under my kitchen counter)

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Not that I don’t love cooking. I’m good at it. But I find it problematic making cinnamonrolls still, because they’re my absolute favorite (homemade, never store-bought..!) and I’m terrified of them. How can one even trust oneself surrounded by that heavenly smell, the excruciating anticipation followed by that magical moment where time seems to be standing still and you tear that shit up and smell that sweet familiar smell of sugary-spicy-butter-soaked-pastry that rise from that beautiful golden baby. That you just made.

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It’s a beautiful moment.

But Oh, so fast. And you just made fucking 20, so you have one more. Maybe even one more. I managed to stop myself after two, but got that horrible pit in my stomach that this.. this is illegal territory. Which I need to practice to be in. It’s fine to be ok with eating vegetables, meat and rye products. But that’s a slippery slope into orthorexia. So I’m trying.. Really trying to challenge myself now that I’ve been stable for so long, to include all of the food-groups. Not that I don’t already eat a bit of everything, but I want to get rid of that guilt.

Getting sweaty just writing about it.

MY POINT!! was actually something completely different. I always seem to get myself all hot and bothered when talking about food and my shit surrounding it. My point was actually something far more interesting and delightful! As earlier stated I’m quite good in the kitchen. I can make AMAZING dinners out of nothing. Just air. That’s how I got so slim.

The End.

No I’m joking. That’s just genes.

I’m basically macgyver in the kitchen. Give me an onion and half an eggplant; I will surprise you. HOWEVER! An ’tis a big however.. I can not and have never been able to get my doughs to rise. It’s such a discouraging thing for me, doughs. But I found a new recipe, google shall provide, and got it this time.

LOOK. at this beauty.

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BEST cinnamonrolls I’ve ever made. So proud.

Did you notice my fantastic apron?

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It’s from Linum Design and makes you want to wear it outside it’s so fabulous.

Sorry for this post btw. I normally never post photos or blog in such details about food. Mostly because we see enough of that shit on instagram and facebook. Fucking people bragging over a fucking bowl of oats (What is there to brag about oats? -You got water to boiling point.) So I’m sorry about that. Just needed to tell a friend that I created something beautiful. And moist. And fluffy. And that it took my breath away. And then left me filled with anxiety. But that I’m dealing with it. Thank you for listening.

  8 comments for “Sorry for this, but I’m too proud of myself not to.

  1. Laura
    08/11/2016 at 15:04

    Never apologise for posting something you’re proud of. If something makes you happy, it makes us happy 🙂

    Thank you for sharing – it was a great read.

    The cinnamon rolls look lovely by the way!

    • Viktoria
      08/11/2016 at 21:40

      🙂

  2. Alyssa summers
    08/11/2016 at 15:39

    I did notice the wine rack when you posted it on intagram! Haha. And i love cooking so much too. I like to think im good at it. I made the soup from ratatoullie (the movie) the scene where remmy makes the soup. Yeah that one. And its SO GOOD. So yeah i definetly understand the excrement 😃. We dont really eat breakfast in my family. Mostly because everyone is either sleeping or at work in the morning. So ANYTHING people make thats breakfast sounds great to me. Im sorry you get anxiety :(.

    That is one snazzy apron.
    ❤❤

    • Alyssa summers
      08/11/2016 at 15:39

      Excitment*****

      • Viktoria
        08/11/2016 at 21:40

        hahaha, got it 😉

  3. 10/11/2016 at 16:50

    finally a news in english =) you truly put your soul and emotions in this blog, not only bragging about some unimportant things, so keep it up!
    Russian warriors congradulate you with your marriage and wish you and all the family the happiness and prosperity! =)
    and those cinnamonrolls is made not only with sugary-spicy-butter-soaked-pastry, but with love, so no other ones even come close to yours!
    russian aurora fan group made a news with some of your cool photoshoot photos and it has over 50 likes for now and some nice comments https://vk.com/auroramusic?w=wall-89557153_1877
    and by the way some russian aurora fans are interested if the letter from russia arrived? in an envelope there was another nice blue flowerish envelope, it is said to be delivered but if you could check if you (or aurora) got it, that would be super cool
    thank you very much for this nice place you have!

    • Viktoria
      13/11/2016 at 11:12

      Thank you! 🙂

  4. Jacob
    15/11/2016 at 09:17

    You have a nice writing voice. Going to read the rest of your posts. I like the photos, too.

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