If you’re anything like me, waking up Sunday morning without a hangover will most likely be the closest to sanctitude you’ll ever feel.
Even went for half-marathon long run with the other one yesterday and spent the rest of the evening drinking tea watching I Don’t Feel at Home in This world Anymore. Which, I felt, was partially true since I felt everybody was out socializing while time stood still at our house. Me and the other one stretched out on different sofas, eating Chinese take-away.. Like how you can feel totally alone in this world (in the best possible way) if you wake up really early while it’s still dark and have the opportunity to sit quietly for a while before taking on the day.
Magical.
I did, however, drink wine on Wednesday
…
Which might have something to do with it. I mean, if I don’t drink wine in over a week, that’s just.. it’s too much. My skin looks a bit better, my anxiety and physical shape improves, I make better life choices.. I just don’t see the point.
We were in Trondheim up north this week with the little one’s crew to help out and watch her perform in probably the most beautiful cathedrals in Norway, Nidarosdomen. It was the most stunning performance she ever gave in my opinion. Might have been the cathedral. Or the lighting. Might have been the fact that she was wearing a dress I worked really hard on. Or that I haven’t seen her in a while. Or the fact that I’ve gotten a whole new outlook on her after her tour in Brazil. I have such tremendous respect for that little one. So few could do what she does without breaking. And she really does make me wanna be a better person.
I was really beaten though. So I wore what I wear whenever I need a confidence boost. Something androgynous and relaxed -yet provocative. Going bra-less in a see-through oversized shirt. Perfect combo for being untouchable. For me. I’m not saying you’ll feel confident showing some nipple. You probably won’t, really.
But I do.
Put this bad boy on top and you’re a diva.
With balls.
It’s fake. Relax.
The fur.
And the confidence.
It’s so beautiful how you admire your sisters and always see them like models and have the courage to say it out loud. And for me you are a model too. ..you have the courage to show yourself and share these many feelings I can relate to. Thank you😍
🙂
Aagh this internet thing is really frustrating. I’d love to share a coffee with you and just talk this stuff out!
I’m not sure why you say you were feeling beaten, but I’m glad when you make positive decisions to try and get yourself into a better place. Even if it isn’t always true you always look smart, strong, confident and evocative to me. I hope one day you can believe it.
I wish I knew how to explain how your little sister has changed my life, she’s a real inspiration and no lies I love her as dearly as anyone can love a stranger. I’d forgotten how to feel a lot of things so I’ve been doing a lot of soul searching, learning about myself; seeing you do the same sort of thing through your blog is really enlightening.
I don’t know if life will ever bring me closer to either of you, but I’m happy to have found you regardless. Stay strong, be happy. x
<3 <3 <3 Thank you! And on behalf of my sister, that makes us so happy :)
Wow! You have come so far in your adventures in life! Your designs I have found to be refreshing with their touch of the old world past. I see great success for you since your younger sibling is able to show off the wonderful unique designs you have created for her. But, of course, the most challenging of any resistance comes from within. Believe me I know. Being a designer definitely has its challenges.
Everybody is perfect, nobody’s human. So true! Where I live that is the mantra of the day. Thank goodness for the mountains! And the seagulls? Ugh! We have so many here too. Then there are the crows. So many crows…..
Anyhow, thank you again for sharing your life’s story one post at a time. It’s been a great help for me. Like listening to someone you see every once in a while at a cafe just to catch up on things and stuff.
Priceless.
Regards,
Kirk
😀 Seagulls! haha.
Thank you for writing Kirk! This makes me so happy to hear <3
I always love your outfit choice! I just bought a faux fur jacket from a nearby thrift shop, sewed up a few loose seams, and now i just need to figure out how to style it on myself!.
I hope youve been having a good week ❤
Happy thursday.
Nice! 😀 It’ll probably go with everything! <3
Hi Viktoria, I love that your sister inspires you so much. It seems to me that you have similar strengths, just in a different ways. I looked up the performance on YouTube and was stunned! It was truly awesome and that dress was sublime and so suited the whole atmosphere… I have been inspired by your designs and dress more confidently and creatively as a result so there you go!
And again, James has provided in words what I could only wish to say!! I often think how wonderful it would be for us all (the regular contributors) to meet rather than always using the internet!! I am in awe of the compassion and thoughtfulness that I read on this blog. It’s kept me coming back over and over! I wish only the very best to you all and hope that no matter how tough things get in life, that none of you ever give up….ever!
<3
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