Doing an appearance on the morning show me and my sister did a couple of months ago tomorrow. In the hotel room now trying to go to sleep. I never think these things through ahead. There’s always something that I’m anxious about in my life. I started crying at the airport today over breakfast and fought a minor panic attack on the bus on the way to my friend for a glass of wine. For instance. If I was to think everything through ahead I’d never leave the apartment. There’s always a feeling in my stomach, chest, somewhere, that I have to brace myself. Life in general and the people in it will attack me. But I always try to ignore it. Don’t listen to it. I’m scared of blushing. Blacking out. Appearing stupid. Panicking -maybe I’ll have to get up and leave mid-interview (I know for a fact I’ll do some of those things tomorrow). So why start now? I feel so sick riding the bus on a bad day, so this.. At least people can sympathize. They can relate. Being on live television is scary. Riding the bus on the other hand, that separates you from a lot of people. Having coffee at a café, not everyone gets that that can feel like you’re feeling you’re dying.
Anyways. I have to get some sleep. I have some stuttering and blushing to do tomorrow and am very busy and important.
I’m also very grateful and excited. Very.
Or fitting photo, old vibe? (I can feel your anxiety looking at the photo and want to give you a big hug!!) I am very excited for you too (and your sister). Hope you had a good sleep. I am sure that in true Vicktoria style you will shine ⭐️
❤ im happy for you and supporting you from afar! Hopefully it will go by swiftly. With me when im nervous its like my brain gets blurry and after its over i forget all the details. But i do hope youre left feeling good after. ❤