l’ve fallen into the habit of sleeping until noon and starting work at 1500. Going to bed at 0300.
I’m usually an early bird (-ish) and generally feel like a better person with my shit together when I get up early and go to bed around 1200. But my creativity doesn’t seem to agree. So I start each morning squinting at my cell phone, sighing over the fact that I lost at least 4 hours of my day, feeling like an utter failure. Then I ask myself if I, unawarely, went out and had ten drinks the night before, before realizing I didn’t and have a silent conversation in my head about why I feel like a trainwreck. It takes me at least an hour to consume breakfast and coffee and get out of my zombie-like state and convince myself that it’s worth it.
Been good at taking breaks though. Which is key. Last night I went for a movie and a burger with a friend, slightly hungover from Tuesday when I had birthday-drinks with friends to celebrate the first one’s 30th yet again (because one can not celebrate one’s self too many times). And my own birthday’s coming up. I plan to celebrate myself at least three times.
Saw The autopsy of Jane Doe, which I would not recommend. If you’re a horror movie lover like myself, it’s a huge disappointment. But it felt good getting out of the house none the less. And the burger was not disappointing.
I also got a haircut. And everyone with short hair know that feeling of a newly-buzzed neck.
It’s like being reborn and seeing the light for the very first time.
With an unusually large left hand.
And yes, I still have those strands of hair rebelling against my newly purchased hair-products (that promised me the world and eternal happiness) and won’t lie down for nothin’! I’m slowly accepting them as part of me now. Like sleeping in.
Haven’t been running or doing yoga, which I’m also trying to accept. Maybe I’m subconsciously rebelling against the universal January-pressure of being “good”.
I AM good.
Great actually!
*silently sobbing*
One can’t do it all though. And I am doing work. And one must make sacrifices. Don’t understand those people who can balance work, a social life, kids for crying out loud and still manage to stay sane. I seem to only get one down at a time and have all the respect in the world for them.
I have to get back to the sewing machine. After just one more cup of coffee.
Have a great day! Mine’s only just started.
Great blog, glad to know I ain’t the only one who wakes up late and sleeps super late on weekdays Lol
Welcome to my lifestyle
Thank you! We’re never alone!
A new haircut is like a first sip of coffee/ tea in the morning. Pure satisfaction.I always feel like I’m 5 kilograms lighter after buzzing my hair.And the breeze is LIFE. Also, you look banging.
So true! #looseitfromyourhead
Ive been feeling the same way, but in a different way, if you know what i mean. Although I know that these things are temporary and the only way i can fix how i feel is to actually DO something about it. So im going to apply for my first job today. 😰 to help myself feel more like an adult, want to start doing more things myself, and have decided this for myself without saying anything to anyone. So my moms probably going to be concerned. (since were so close).
Im really happy youre getting rest time though, even though your mind seems to fight it. I think that its good for one to change routine once in a while. To help re-center ones self.
Have a wonderful night
The best way to achieve goals I find is to not tell anyone 🙂 We all just want to be adults don’t we.. Good luck Alyssa with your job application! I believe in you! <3
Thank you ❤
Isn’t it fascinating that we (at least where I live, and for now :/ ) see the year in terms of seasons but resist seeing our own seasons as healthy? Since when did the changing rhythms of our daily lives become signs of instability?! I blame the industrial revolution (and men :). After all, the sun comes up and goes down and time passes–but the minutes we’ve broken time up into are just an invention. My whole life has been seasonable and shifting like weather. I do feel unbalanced pretty much all the time, but I also feel like a genius when I’m most off kilter. Maybe, just maybe, that’s how we experience what looks, from a distance, like equilibrium? Sigh.
So true..!! Time is indeed not that big a deal. And IS (I know, that felt weird writing) not needed for.. everyone. Emotionally time does nothing for us beside remind us how abnormal a life we lead. Anyway.. have a nice day! Or moment!
Nice blog post. “The universal January-pressure of being good.” I liked that, and a bunch of other words, too.
Thank you! <3
Ah ha, I know exactly how you feel. I’m all for following your bodies rhythms, I’ve always been a night owl. I’m lucky enough to have a pretty flexible employer so I tend to work later in the day, so I rarely need to wake before midday. Now I like this, I’m comfortable with being awake when the light is fading, or into the early hours. But it’s terrible for getting anything done (everywhere is closed) and for socialising (normal people are asleep).
Weirdly been waking up first thing this week, so I’ve had to nap before work but I’ve been getting all sorts done in the morning. I don’t even recognise who I’ve become! :O
I fret about lost time too, but I’m not sure if it’s something you *should* worry about. I’ve read creativity isn’t about waiting around for inspiration to strike, it’s work. Got free time? Try to do something creative and you’ll get results, you might like them at first but keep doing it.
I’m trying this out myself so can’t vouch for how true it is. But I’ll take wisdom where I can get it. 🙂
I think in periods it’s okay to do whatever whenever! But, for me at least, I normally prefer as a freelancer working from my own living room to get up earlier. But now it’s a special project, so it’s fine 🙂 I also love the mornings you see.. when it’s dark outside and you feel the world outside is still asleep. I guess it’s about the same as staying up really late, come to think of it..! haha
Dawn an dusk have very different atmospheres though. Lovely if you can see them both… might need a nap though. 😀
🙂
I’ve managed to get the flu for the second time this year. And it’s still January yet.
It’s bloody awful..
That’s horrible!!