I mentioned last week I was going to Oslo for a day to work. I felt so honored when I was asked by, seriously one of the coolest women I know, Christine Dancke, to contribute to a project she’s doing on anxiety. She contacted me a couple of weeks ago after reading a specific blog post of mine. How small this country is. How special she made me feel. My voice?
She sent me some photos. How it pains me, seeing photos of myself when I’m stressed.
It stresses me.
And makes me a little sad. I worked on it for the rest of the weekend. Not that I necessarily feel like I’ve pushed myself too far or given too much, that it’s too raw.. I just always have to clean up when Memory and Sorrow have visited. Not that it ever surprises me, tears. I just always seem the forget how painful they can be. When you’re crying with your entire body and feel like you can’t breathe. And you can’t really be crying right now and need to reschedule this whole thing. Come back later, you know I’ll take care of you later. But this is the worst time. Because there’s people waiting for me. And I have to put my face on. And you’re pushing tears from my insides because that’s the only visible language that you have. I feel you, you know.
Brings me back to my wedding every time these visits. Which doesn’t really help the situation.
The weekend really was great, though. So many good people that I love. But I feel like I’ve been really busy exhausting myself lately socializing and traveling. Traveling is fucking hard when you’re drained.
I feel for the little one.
Being at home working doesn’t really make me tired. I’ve started running again.. which feels really good. You know the feeling of just wanting to take care of yourself? I can see on my face and feel in my bones that I’m tired and need some recuperating. Which I’ll do. Cancelled all my social upcoming events and am being my best friend at the moment.
The little one’s home any day now. How I’ve missed her. The first one too, actually. Think I’ll go see them one of these days. Yes. I’ll go see them one of these days.
Strong photos, showing your serious side, outwardly focused and fighting on the inside. Yes, that feeling of wanting to take care of ones self. It’s good to know the signs and act accordingly. I hope you get to see your sisters soon too! Big hugs to you lovely Viktoria. If you were a flower what would you be?
Thank you Stella. I’m seeing her later today <3
do y get exhausted fighting against yourself too? some times i fell like this and just want to give up….it´s so beutiful the connection you have with your sisters…speanking about sisters, i´m from brazil and i met aurora and it was the most magical day in my life…how i admire her!! i hope she loved my country and hope she can come back soon and next time you and miranda can come with her…anyway..thanks for your blog..it helps me a lot
:-*
Biggest fights are usually the ones with ourselves. Thanks Flavia <3
Yeah, I know and agree with you…the battles against ourselves are the harder ones…its like some times you are ready to fight with all your heart but some times you Just want to give up and lately im with the 2nd one..im too tired to keep fighting😐
Team Aksnes reunite and recharge! Hope it’s warm and cosy and lovely for you all. <3
Congrats on this woman contacting you (: i can imagine how that must feel.. I hope you achieve some well deserved body recuperation,like you said.
I just woke up from dreaming, you were in it and you came into my work, i was nervous that youd have no idea who i was, but you kinda new, and we said hellos. I remember walking and listening to you talk in norwegian, and being able to understand, so nice.
Great on running again ❤ have a nice visit with your family.
Lots of love to you
I was there, and I’m with you today whispering nice and comforting thoughts in norwegian into your ear throughout the day <3
💘💞
Makes me think about the name of Goldilocks first album. All My Demons Greeting Me As A Friend maybe someday, the sooner the better for both of us. Mine won’t let me sleep much anymore. A’s gonna be so jet lagged.
How crazy the whole aksnes family keeps on inspiring me without any recognition you should be stress free ☺👏👏👏
I love to listen to Auroras music in the background while reading your blog. It makes everything twice as powerful and I just feel happier!
Ahhhwww <3 <3