Just got home from my psychologist.
And I’m feeling as blurry and unstructured in my mind as I do in my life right now.
So I went immediately for my pajamas. My christmas pajamas.
Feeling christmassy as can be.
I even busted out my christmas mug. I have one.
It only sees daylight (about 4 hrs a day) in the most magical month of them all, named December. I get that it’s november for one more day still, but this day I needed a little extra comfort, so I forgive myself one days cheat.
Can’t fucking wait for christmas. And holiday. I’ve set my date for the 19th. Following other people with real jobs’ schedule. Which I thought was a great idea. The true magic doesn’t happen ’til there’s all three of us anyways. We actually made a christmassy pact long ago in a land far far away; NOT, under any circumstances whatsoever, to watch any of the christmas movies unless we were all present. Additionally I thought it showed great self-restraint. Since it means I have to work until that very date. And I hate working. Not always! Like when I’m crazy in the zone -I fucking love that. Plus when I’m done. Love being done. Otherwise, in general, I hate it. I would just do life any day if I had my way.
Luckily!! To make my day even brighter is God Morgen Norge on the tv. And Wenche, the friendly familiar face with the warm culinary embrace we all grew up watching, is making all the christmas cookies -including krumkaker, without eggs. Gluten-free. Soy-free. Probably vegan. And organic.
As if my life wasn’t complicated enough.
Mmm (: like i said, we havebsimilar jammies. I see aurora tomorrow! Thats so crazy to me. Im a bit nervous. Hopefully ill get to meet her and give her the paintings. And im excited for her to go home so you guys can be together 😊. I am also waiting for my sibling to get home.
I have to do a presentation today. Wish me luck. At least its on one of the best things i could possibly present on, harry potter. But nonetheless its still standing in front of a class trying to form words loud enough to hear. Yikes. Talk later.
❤
Update: nailed the presentation 👍 ok ill stop commenting about myself now.
I just wrote a 5 page letter for aurora to go with the paintings 😅😊
Im at the venue and just got word that shes sick and was told its serious. Yikes. I gave my paintings to someone they told me theyd go see if her manager would take them. Waiting to hear back on that. Also just found out she isnt playing at seattles either. I hope she feels better. Sending my love.
Update: was just told shes in the hospital. I was able to give my paintings to her manager and she will take them up to her tonight for me. All my prayers with you guys.
Update: met magnus. Told him i sent my paintings with them. Then left. I feel very on edge like i should be at the venue to talk to them if they come back out. Lame. Ive decided to still head up to seattle for them. Just to be there. Sorry im commenting so much. This is how i deal with my feelings.